First, this post may come across as egotistical. If so, my apologies. It is what it is.
From my youth, I have been seen as a smart person. I was usually the top in the class, or close to it, accellerated in school, looked to for opinions by friends, successful in the workplace. I wasn’t socially adept, and I wasn’t fit, but, there were few things that I could not do intellectually if I chose to do it.
Recently, I have been working out at CrossFit box and have discovered what it means to be “special” or “other” or “handicapped”
You see, I am not the leader here. I am not even close.
- There is no chance that I will ever be the leader.
- I am the anchor slowing down others
- I am the person who doesn’t understand and has to be explained multiple times.
- I am the person who you have to make room for, who misses a cue, or stumbles in the path.
- I am like the special kid who would never get math, but was in the class anyhow.
- I am like the integrated kid that the other parents complained about for taking up teacher’s time
- I am the senior who has trouble hearing or seeing, but is sitting at the card table, hoping you will play a game with them, and not mind.
So, an unexpected learning is occurring for me as part of CrossFit programming.
I’m learning what it feels like to try and do something that you know you won’t ever be awesome at. Sure, you might get it, you will be able to do some stuff…but, you will still just be passable. That’s a whole different thing, than working hard to be awesome at something.
I’m also able to experience the various ways that become include someone who is different:
- the rude — you really shouldn’t be here, you can’t do it, you’re fat/old/incompetent/unteachable
- the ignore — you can do what you do but just dont’ get in my way
- the welcoming — the ones who cheer on, but, would rather not ask somene to accomodate your inability or name that you aren’t being included
- the accomodating — will make it ok for you to be there with them
- the affirming — the ones who fit in the person who is holding them up and celebrate their accomplishments, seeing them as equal humans
This is the first time, that I can remember, striving for soemthing and knowing that I will never be even half-decent.
i think it may help me become more affirming with others.
It definitely makes me look back on some of those people who have crossed my path with awe.
An unexpected lesson from CrossFit..